i lost my voice on monday. went to work screaming at a whisper. i’d have a little bit of a voice in the morning, but after an entire day of attempting to talk i had nothing but rasp left. i am totally exhausted after attempting to talk all day, and frustrated at the amount of people who make me repeat myself when they know i can’t talk. i go home and go straight to bed. monday i slept thirteen hours, tuesday i slept eleven hours. i had planned to get back to my normal routine, but that’s not happening. my appetite is low and i haven’t exercised in two weeks. i feel like i have been running on empty for weeks. never getting a chance to re-coup, or regroup. i feel like i am behind on everything. we made plans weeks ago, before dad got ill, to take all the kids to see harry potter this weekend. two of my nephews are spending the night at mom’s friday. their parents have to work on saturday and i didn’t want them to be left out. all of their cousins are going, i wanted them to have the chance to go too. mom doesn’t want to keep them by herself in case something happens with dad, so i am spending the night friday and i am not looking forward to it. the idea was fine at the time but now i am just so exhausted. it’s hard to sleep in another bed, not your home. i love my nephews but they are at that age where the irritate each other for sport. another weekend is blown and i still won’t have any down time. i hate working five days. i get nothing accomplished and am always behind. i have no energy left and i feel like i am not getting a chance to recharge. there’s just too much going on, too much to do.
positivity for today. i took a movie recommendation from my twelve year old nephew and really enjoyed it. can’t wait to talk about this show with him. should be fun.
