can i just say, this freakin’ bites? big time. let’s see, first we lose twelve hour days, then we lose ten hour days. then one of the dayshifters comes back from her medical leave and although everyone else on days was forced onto eight hour shifts, she was given special consideration no one else got and was brought back on ten hour days. while i am still working eight hour days. must be nice to be entitled to such blatant favoritism. they hired a prn person who immediately went on a leave and pushed his hire date back one month, and now that it’s time for him to start, has extended his leave and pushed it back another month. i’m sorry, he hasn’t even been to new employee orientation and he’s on an loa? are you kidding me? i asked my boss why exactly are we holding a job for someone who obviously doesn’t really want to work here. he said they are “looking” for someone else. now the one and only ten hour person on day shift is being forced to work eight hours like everyone else, lost her special consideration, and well, we’re all supposed to feel sorry for her. the midnight shift tech came back from her second leave since june, on light duty, they put her on day shift, and today’s her second day back on the job, so she calls in and says she’ll be in “sometime around eleven”. it’s your second day back and you show up three hours late? how the hell do people get away with this shit? all through this we are being told by management to “be nice” and “accommodate”. let’s see, you let the same people pull the same shit over and over, show preferential treatment to some people the rest of us are not entitled to and wonder why morale is low and everyone is pissed off? hmmm…… and how the fuck do you “accommodate” when no one shows up for work? through all of this i should feel grateful to have a job. i don’t understand why nothing ever seems to change, nothing ever gets done about the habitual offenders. now that i got all of that off my chest, this job is only temporary, it’s a mean to an ends.
i have had this cold since friday. i can’t sleep at night because of all the coughing and snotting. the cough has moved out of my chest and into my throat, all the drainage from my sinuses causes me to cough and hack until i am literally choking. i have been blowing my nose so much that yesterday the skin on one of my nostrils cracked and bled. i have a pounding headache and i feels slightly feverish. because my vacation and sick time is all rolled into one, and i have no idea what i will be working come october, i can’t call off for fear of not having enough time to cover my vacation. so everyday i drag my miserable ass through the door and proceed to play that day’s reindeer games. it’s hard enough to come into work, but when you are sick on top of it, and not getting any sleep it just bites. i am so tired and i feel so run down,. i don’t have bags under my eyes i have steamer trunks, i don’t have dark circles i have black circles. i look worn out, i feel worn out, and my skin looks sallow and tired.
and now that i got that out of my system, i haven’t exercised in three weeks between dad and all the illnesses, i have had i haven’t been able to. exercise is how i deal with stress and i am not getting the opportunity to release any of this anxiety and agitation, in addition my appetite has been low, my diet is all off kilter. i have been trying to lose the same fifteen pounds for three months and i am getting nowhere. by the time i am feeling well enough to start exercising again, i will be basically starting over. i have lost ground. this happened last year in june when i was way laid with a cold for two weeks. all this stress between work and home just keeps piling up. it feels like it just keeps coming, i have been able to catch everything but a break. my weekends get swallowed up, this saturday i have to take the car in for maintenance, every time i hit the brakes the entire front end of my car shakes. there goes one of my only two days off spent sitting at the garage. sunday i am off and i am unplugging. i am not answering the phone and i am ignoring the world. i am taking one day and spending it on me. i am not making plans with anyone or doing anything other than what i want to do. no house cleaning, no having to take someone else into consideration. sunday is my day, all about me.
so now that that’s out of the way. this is jenny craig. this was dinner. linguini with mushroom marinara sauce. it was good, but i could still only eat about half.
positivity for today. as you can tell, things have not been going all that great. however, one of the cc’s i am paying off gives you “points” for making so many payments on time in a row. i cashed in my points and today when i got home there was a fifty dollar starbucks card sitting in my snailbox.
